all free me
and the pain
and the whispers
and the spider

nothing's changed
about forever
Remember when I told you

We drank our souls in cafe cups
(shared our breath in soul-dance vows)

Can't undo the strand

MOTHER CHRISTMAS

Christmas souls
flash snow storms
Mountain homes
feasts
friends
love

Music &
New memories
new family

Remember the solstice
where we were angels

There's some greater mystery,
I mean...the way the hawk I saw
reminded me of your name
(     )

calls on me to rest
The  forest of my youth
Some kind of home
Death to all of us

freedom of our breath
and always have been
that you are the one

home forever
Before death takes me
I wanted you to know

girl in the coffee shop
to love you
I think it would be easy

Do you remember
the poem I wrote you

( I only spoke it to you
at the party, I came to
with her,
she was also very tall and
easy to fall for)

You said the story wasn't
over (and that we should probably
be in love,
all over the world
all the time)

Nights we tried to
free stars in our heads
(bleed out the pain)

Rode steeds to death
into crumbling sunset
(burned down all your homes)

Trapped in our fantasies
(baby you and me had made
our deathbeds on hot coals
and Phoenix wishes)

If wishes were a princess
(and she had only stolen a kiss)

and death was some kind of freedom
(every time we jumped from 13,000 or so feet
and blah blah blah)

I mean maybe we should sit fly or
fuck it just go free style

The thief in our eyes
broken spiders over the continent
She wore a fire dress and spoke
Latin Poetry

(something about Athena and
the wars)

After all the worlds
(come down around us)
back home to me
mama sweet
child visions
(lights in the forest
and the coming
sun)

Rays of lost truth
escape
(radio-waves streaming,)

Spirit-music
you were my
song

Searchingforsomething
tofreeme

all the gurus
goddesses
death machines
(traps in the spider's web)

Yes I'm reaching
(through these
poems) feel it
squeezing
right around your
heart

Ghosts spill back
home (again
I find you )
lingering in that
space where we
are one

Would you be my stillness
sweet angel of pain
(voodoo doll
enchantress)

ecstatic needles removing
almost no blood spilling


I know you think I pushed you
outside the circle that I am ever
receding into your ocean
and the moon and stars
are yours

Take me to the haunted
places
(and the time you were
a princess)

Tombstone passages
of textual perceptions

(yeah like Ophelia unwinding
and whatnot,
and they say everybody
rises and such,
and such)

Or like Easter and the Heavens
and all the beautiful ladies

(ride them fast machines
son...I mean make a machine
of yourself, cuz, I mean you
and I baby, we were just a dream
(a dream in stillness that does
not move))

Those moments of ecstasy
Unraveled everything
Buddhas shining right through our clothes

If you ever un-dream us
(rust through skies we
lit up)

Remember how every cell in
our bodies would jump right through
our sneakers

(the grilled meat and Indian trails)

you shared your mother-goddess-visions
about life on earth

I gave you time-travelled poems
(I just gave them all to you)

When you burn in
you burn in

Deathless wings of us (Freedom)

Jamming

Speed of union
hurtling stillness
creation

Mother spider lonliness

(forgive the memory vibes of heisting
glorious lives of thieves)

I'm not giving back what's stolen

(keep the ecstasy I gave you)